Is Raw right for me?

Last week has been some what of a challenge! First me being ill, than an amazing summery birthday (yay! in Octobre!) and after that my son got ill (flu). So, much time and space for daily dedications was hard to find. I had to do with little scraps, seconds or minutes and flat out feeling too tired to do anything at all!

Nonetheless it has been a memorable week, with some amazing ups and shocking downs. It seems the weather is with me on that same page, as it has changed from amazing summer weather (27 degrees and sunny) to 12 degrees, rainy and windy in just 5 days.

I noticed that during the sunny and warm days I did really like drinking the raw juices. But as the weather is changing, all I long for are stews, soups and a lot of other warming and wintery foods. I remember reading an interesting piece written by Andreas Moritz, where he mentions that raw isn't necessary all that good to all of us. He is an ayurvedic specialist (among other things) and in ayurveda, what food is good for you has everything to do with what body/mind type you are. (if you wish to read more about this and find out your type online, check out the Deepak Chopra website). According to Ayurveda, stews and soups and slow cooked things are really good for me. Well there you go!

So what I am planning to do now is to enroll for a ayurvedic cooking workshop and read more about the do's and don'ts for me and my dosha (body/mind) type.

What's interesting is that my bodytype at this moment is predominantly Kapha. And this is the description and some do's and don'ts according to the Chopra site:

When Kapha is out of balance, too much earth has accumulated in mind, body, and environment. The result is a sense of sluggishness, congestion, and dullness. The best way to balance excess a Kapha is to bring more movement and circulation into the physiology. Think invigoration.

• Awaken at sunrise
  
• Look for opportunities to create healthy change
  
• Favor pungent, bitter, and astringent tastes
  
• Avoid eating when you’re not hungry
  
• Be spontaneous and try new things
  
• Wear invigorating fragrances
  
• Clean out your space
  
• Drink Invigorating Herbal Tea
• Diffuse Invigorating fragrances into your environment
  
• Favor bright strong colors – reds, oranges, yellows
  
• Meditate twice a day to get clear on your intentions and desires
  
• Perform a vigorous self-massage with warm Invigorating herbalized oil
  
• Exercise daily!

So, what's interesting about it, is that many of these points I have actually mentioned in my very first blog and were even the reason for me to start this! Do I hear Hallelujahs and angel bells ringing? Oh no it is just the wind, but wow!! So this is really resonating with me and I like it!

Other than that I really don't like to get rid of all that mess on my desk/family table (but even more so I cannot stand the mess, but I choose to constantly look around it, because I just simply don't know where to put all the stuff) (Boy, reading this back makes me want to kick my own butt and tell to shut up and stop complaining!) So I will clear all the mess on the table right after finishing writing this!

Other thing that's interesting is the exercise daily note. I mean, I do stuff, but simply not enough or not invigorating (a word a learned today! Thank you Deepak) enough for me. I walk my dogs in the park/forest every day for about an hour and I ride my bike, take the stairs instead of elevators, carry my almost 4 year old kid around and I do yoga (but remember, I do it Mellow style!), but that's just not enough I suppose. So today, I used to walk-the-dog part as an energetic/anusara (thighs inward, chest open and up etc) walk and it was really really nice! Usually I am in a sort of dreamy mellow state, but today I turned it up a few notches.

Did not make time for meditation and neither enough time for visiualizing my dreams enough. Not on a daily basis. So that has to be improved too.

So, I am by far from where I want to be, but I do really think I am going in the right direction!

With that I sign off.... dragging myself by my ear so that I will clear the table and I might just do some meditation time right after that!

Here we go!

 inspiration from the Cafe Gratitude

This is it. I am a bit scared, because usually I tend to keep to myself quite a lot. Especially about all the not so nice stuff about me. I have good days and bad days. And the can follow each other very rapidly and be totally on the other side of the spectrum. I am done with wondering if this is normal. Because who cares? I mean, really... what is the difference to label it as normal or not? Fact of the matter is that this is how it is and I want it to change. That is all that matters.

So, how am I going to change this?

Good question.

I do not have a real answer, but what I do know, is that I need to change and shift a few basic things in my life.

1. I need better quality of sleep because so many nights I don't sleep well and I usually feel absolutely and totally knackered, worn out etc. This makes me snappy, irritated, negative and oh my god, what about the dark never ending circles around my eyes!
2. I need to create more quality time for myself. Basicly all is covered in this department, but I often can't get away frommy bloody computer and totally waste my time doing nothing lifesavingly important
3. I need to set up a daily routine (this I will write about below my list of things)
4. I need to create a puja, even though I tend to be a little allergic to these sort of things. Let's cut the crap and just do it! 
5. I need to write about this all. I hope that this will help me to continue and not slowly let it die like so many other things I have done so far

Shaping up my Daily Routine;
Okay, first of all, I am a mother of a 3,5 year old son. I am 3 months pregnant, have 2 dogs, live in the city, teach yoga a couple of hours a week and I also work as a freelance marketeer. I live together with the daddy of my kids and he has a beautiful beard. We do all the housework ourselves and no, I do not at all enjoy doing housework kind of stuff. But aay, it has got to be done. Maybe I should put the wish for a really nice and good help around the house in my new puja? And then there's friends, family and ofcourse, Estudio Espanol! And workshops and courses I do.

So, basicly, I'd like to say I have got a pretty busy life. But who doesn't these days? And especially because of this I need a routine. Even though I HATE routines, always have. Maybe that's the answer to all of my wishes? Probably so!

Okay, Daily Routine:

• I want to start and end the day with a moment of being thankful/grateful
• spend time every day focusing on my puja; what are my dreams, what do I want. Seeing myself living the life I want. 
• Eating and drinking more healthy (I do this already, but I want to include a lot more raw food to my diet)
• more exercise to heat up my system and burn all that has got to go (I tend to do yoga a lot on my own, but it is always very relaxing and not making me sweat)
• meditate daily 

So there you have it. It is out now.

Today I've started with being grateful, thinking about what I want in my life and meditating. I have created a digital puja, but the real one will have to wait till tonight (so boyfriend with a beard can drill some holes in the wall). I have the ingredients for a raw shake. Kale really?? eww, but we will see in a short while if I like it or not!

And exercise! ehm yes. I  will do an Elena Brower class on Yogaglo as soon as I push the 'publish post' button to forever post this blog, the start of a vital and satisfied me!